Josh struggled with his own demons. He couldn’t get thoughts of him and his mother playing out the near pornographic scene together. He was rock hard at the thought of it. This did make him feel dirty and perverted. He mentally admonished himself for not controlling his urges. He tried in vain to get control of his body and his mind. However the harder he tried the harder he got. Finally in desperation he went into the bathroom to relieve himself.
The two shared a small two bedroom one bath apartment. The inner walls were thin. Mary could hear what her son was doing regardless of his best efforts to be perfectly silent. This drove Mary over the brink. She began imagining her son masturbating and soon she was more aroused than she had ever been in her entire life. With no resolve left Mary retreated to her bedroom to sort her frustration out before she did something stupid. She was sorely tempted to run to her son and throw herself at him.
Rehearsals were scheduled for Sundays all day, Monday evenings, Wednesday evenings, and Saturday mornings. Mary and Josh both worked hard at learning their lines and practicing their songs. The tension between them was being abated by copious amounts of masturbation on both their parts. They only had six weeks until opening night.
The director was a slave driver. He was exceedingly meticulous. Going over every detail with a fine tooth comb. There was no full dress rehearsals until the week of opening night. When Mary and Josh were learning the love scenes they were fully dressed. Even then the director was pushing the two to put more passion into it. He demanded as much realism and authenticity as they could muster. He kept saying they were not convincing him of anything. He wanted to see them together and believe they were in love and they were on fire with passion.
Both Mary and Josh were having difficulties overcoming the fact that they were mother and son. Mary more so than Josh. Josh was having trouble because the fake lovemaking with his mother was making him obviously hard. This was uncomfortable and embarrassing for Josh. It also set Mary on edge. She got a perverse thrill and an ego boost from her son’s obvious sexual excitement. This however just served to cause Mary to feel dirty and perverted.
Mary knew that having any attraction for her own son was wrong. She loathed herself for feeling the way she did. However she felt powerless to do anything to curb her unnatural feelings for her son. She was so conflicted over the whole situation that at times she wanted to quit the play. Other times she loved how it felt to have her beautiful son lust after her the way he did. She tried to gain the will power to call the whole thing off. She desperately wanted to do the right thing.
As the weeks went by Mary and Josh tried to do their best to be convincing. They just weren’t quite getting there. Mary asked, “Josh what are we doing wrong?”
“I don’t know mom. Maybe we need to address the elephant in the room before we can get it right.” Josh said.
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