Mother: Sorry… I thought you were sleeping and I heard something. Well… now I know where it was coming from.
The next morning, we just proceeded as normal as embarrassing things are nothing to be ashamed of. It was awkward, but an interesting story to tell the least. In all of this, my sexuallity over the summer increased tremendously, and so did my sister’s. However, when school started back up and fall started to kick in, this is when my feelings for Tori started to develop.
Chapter 6 – Lust & Contemplation –
I don’t know why, but all of a sudden in the mid fall, I started to become sexually aroused by my sister. It wasn’t really love or romanticism but rather a lust for her body. As I said before, I never had a closer relationship with any other girl and never had any experience with one either. This started to bother me a little as I really wanted to know what it felt like to touch another woman sexually. Tori didn’t know of my arousal for her so everything proceeded as normal, but there was still a slight change in how I saw her. At school I would often think about her body, seeing her naked just out the shower, or touching her while she was naked. At home I would talk to her or play around with her which kept my mind off of sex, but around night time I would offer her to sleep with me in my bed(not sex but actually sleeping together). We used to always do this when we were younger, but I guess we grew out of it. For nostalgic purposes, Tori would never decline as she also loved being close to me physically.
When we slept together, I would often be the one cuddling her and spooning her. I would always be on the outside, wrapping my arm around her upper waste, wishing I could go lower. Mother also thought of this as sweet since we were sisters and enjoyed the fact that we could sleep together, even at the age we were at. At some point, I knew I just wanted more than just masturbation and fantasies, I wanted to be sexual with my sister. I know it sounds weird but, because we were both really comfortable with our bodies and talking about sex, at that time I wish it could have escalated to helping each other explore the other’s body, maybe even getting the other off, or making them cum. As a lesbian, my sister stood out to me because she was a girl and I wanted to connect with her. I wanted to see how she would like being touched by a girl, or having a girl go down on her. Basically, I’m sugar coating that I wanted to have sex with my sister Tori. However, I felt that mother would be disgusted in wanting to do that and even having those thoughts in the first place. So the idea of getting in trouble kept me in check from telling my sister about us having sex or touching her sexually. But eventually we would have our moment.
Chapter 7 – Family Vacation –
At this point, Christmas was approaching, snow was falling, and of course it was really cold outside. However, one thing me and my sister really looked forward to was our family trip to florida. Every year this time, mother and our small family group – grandparents, grandaunts, and cousins – would go to Florida on a business trip. Here my mother would do her bioengineering experiments and since the family was also in that field, they would be involved too. Mother didn’t really tell me or my sister what exactly she was doing, but said that when we get older she would tell us. Me and my sister didn’t care too much about it though, as we enjoyed spending time in the hot weather, going to the beach, and even sometimes going to Disney World – but that was on occasion.