By this time Mary, being empathetic to her son’s anguish, had tears of her own. “Oh Josh! Baby don’t cry. I am so sorry if I made you feel differently towards me. Please son, let’s just forget about this damn play and go back to the way we were.” Mary said in the most motherly of tones.
Josh said, “It’s not your fault mom, and it’s too late for us to go backwards. My perspective has changed forever. I will never see you any other way than the way I see you now.”
“How do you see me now Joshua?” Mary asked.
Josh tried to choose his words thoughtfully. “Mom when I see you now, I see a woman who is extremely desirable. I see a woman I have loved my whole life. I see an unselfish woman who has dedicated her entire adult life to me. I see a beautiful, sexy, gorgeous woman that any man ,including myself, could fall for very easily.”
Mary blushed at her son’s praises, but she also gasped at what he had just said. “You mustn’t say things like that Josh! It’s wrong. You know it’s wrong to have those kind of thoughts about me.”
“I know mom, but when you had those kind of feelings towards me last night I picked up on it. That’s what caused me to see you in a different light. I can’t not see you that way now. I can’t help it mom.”
“Joshua! Get a grip! You can control your emotions and feelings. You aren’t trying. We can do this play without having it ruin the mother son relationship we both cherish. We will do this play and we will not let it destroy our lives.” Mary scolded her son.
This seemed to have the desired effect on Josh. Josh saw his mother again as mother. He set his jaw and his resolve. He decided that his mother was right and this play would not cause him to lose his self control.
“You are of course right mother. We will not be ruled by our baser instincts and drives. We will play our parts to thunderous applause and rave reviews.” Josh replied sounding quite convincing. However in the back of his mind he was visualizing him and his mother in the scene that had them both on edge.
Mary was having doubts of her own. She was wondering if she didn’t just steer her and her son down a path from which there was no return. She also thought privately that she may have done it on purpose. Did she really want for this to lead to a permanent change in the nature of their relationship? Why hadn’t she just decided to give up the role and avoid any temptation? Deep in her subconscious she already knew the answer. Deep down she had desires that had been directed at her son for a long time.
Mary met Josh’s father and fell for his handsome features and his silky smooth voice. She was bowled over by his easy charm and flattering compliments. Josh’s father was the only man Mary had ever been with and it was just the one time. Now she was up against it again. Josh looked so much like his father did twenty four years ago. Now he was starting to talk to his mother the same way his father did so long ago. This was different though. Josh loved her. It would be safe to love him back this time. Mary was lost in thought for several hours as she tried to sort her feelings and motives out.
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