He finished his work a little later and told my mom that he has to close the shop to go to the hospital. If it is open people might still come and keep him occupied. He said he’ll close the half shutter and be back. My mom hesitated to say it won’t be nice if I am inside when you close the half shutter people might think of crazy things.
So I better stay outside the half-closed shutter. The tailor said that’s a good idea. He asked my mom for the design for my blouse and my mom picked two with his suggestions after seeing the saree. My mom went out and he closed the half shutter, he came to take the measurements.
He measured my arm width and asked if I don’t eat well at home. I said I don’t eat well as I am in a hostel in Chennai. He then asked me if I am wearing a slip. I said yes, he said the measurements will go wrong as I wont have a slip when I wear the blouse. I have never been so close with a man other than my father and brother.
They have never seen me in any state of undress. Even if they did I never felt uneasy, but before the tailor, I hesitated. My tailor sensed my hesitation and told my mom about it. He also complained that he had to leave. My mom told me to listen to him as he is a good tailor, so when I asked him where I can remove.
He said the trial room is not accessible now and I have to do it there. I hesitated but my mom said it’s okay Ammu. So I started removing my tops in front of the tailor. Then I took off my slip slowly. I stood in a cream-colored strap bra before the tailor.
About the tailor, he was a lean man and had grey hair and he was almost 50 years old. So when I stood in front of him, he let his hand into his pant pocket and was looking for something. I thought it was for his pencil, only now do I realize he did that for some other reason.
So he came near me to take the measurements. I was getting goosebumps when he was near me. I was feeling different. He slowly started taking the measurements. When he placed his fingers near my nipples it was getting erect. I have felt like this only while bathing and now I was scared.
But he was very professional, he brushed my breasts and almost got my nipple out as I was moving with discomfort. He asked what my problem was I said nothing and he went behind me. He asked if it’s my first time in a strapped bra, I hesitatingly said yes.
He said I have not put it on properly and there is a bend in the strap and that is why I am feeling uncomfortable. Saying so he undid my strap from behind and in reflex, I held my bra covering my breast. He said don’t worry I am just putting the strap straight and then he pulled the straps to latch it.
My small breasts were tightly held. I said, “Aahhhhhhh.” I tried controlling but I couldn’t and so it was feeble. I was in shock and he said the measurements are done. I can get it in two days. So I put on the slip and tops. I didn’t want the bra, but I didn’t want to be naked in front of the tailor too as I was already losing my senses.
So I put my slip and tops and joined my mom. we started towards the bus stand to go home. As the market was crowded many people were pushing each other. I was getting squeezed and my breasts were squeezed because of my short stature. I was not aware of this at first and I didn’t mind it.