A little spanking was one thing, but when she wanted me to use a switch or a crop, and she wanted it on her legs, and any other place she could think of, I called a halt. I said, “Mom, I can’t do this, this is hurting you, and even if you want me to, it hurts me to do it. And it doesn’t take a genius to see the reason it hurts you to have me inside you. Mom, you don’t have to punish yourself…for us loving each other. We both that’s what this is about, don’t we mom?”
She started crying and said, “I can’t stop myself Danny, I love you, and I’m going to lose you now, I don’t know what to do, it does hurt me when you’re in me, I’m not making it up, you believe me don’t you Danny…don’t leave me Danny…I’m sorry…”
It took a long while before she stopped crying even though I kept telling her, “I know it really hurts you…I’m not leaving…I love you…I’ll never leave you.”
When she calmed down enough to listen I said, “Mom, you have to talk to someone…sometimes you can’t do it by yourself, and I’m too close to you…you have to, for us.”
She agreed and began seeing a therapist that Carla knew. I also saw him once in a while to see what help I could be. It took a while before I could convince mom that she had to tell him everything. She said, “How can I say those things to him? How can I say I say that I let my son have sex with me…that I want him to…that I want…”
I said, “How can you not? He can’t help you if he doesn’t know how the truth of how we love each other…how much we love each other…don’t we mom?”
She said, “Yes baby we do love each other, and I want to love you with all of me…” She agreed to tell him everything.
Meanwhile Jessica was born and a joyful light came into all our lives. From the first few days I knew that this was going to be the most spoiled kid on the face of the earth. The five of us couldn’t buy her enough, kiss her enough, or love her enough. And Carla had Red in her bed for an uninterrupted month while Pam healed.
And I think it was Jessica that helped bring mom back to me. The therapist got mom to understand what she was doing to herself, but Jessica brought her to an emotional awakening. Mom came to me one night and said, “I was holding Jessica today, and I looked at this sweet baby in my arms, and I thought that one day we might have a baby together…and whether we decide it’s right for us or not, I know that I would want to have your baby.” I kissed her and held her and told her, “Mom, I don’t care what we do or how we do it or. I just want to be with you and love you.”
She said, “Yes sweetheart…we’re going to be okay, I know it. No matter what was drummed into me when I was young, we can live our own life, even if it is different from other people. We have good friends, and we have each other. Sweet Danny, you’re my son, I love you, and we’re going to make love…we’re going to have sex…and we’re going to be happy with each other.
We kissed and we went to bed. I took out the lubricant that we had been using and mom said, “No, just put on some music.” I kissed and touched her pussy gently until my fingers were sticky with her juices. She held my cock lovingly in her hand as it hardened and throbbed. She said, I’m glad you’re so big and hard for me baby, the first time I saw you like this I wanted you inside me; even with that voice in my head telling me I was wrong, I always wanted you…and this.” She rubbed my cock up and down and said, “Be inside me baby, inside your momma who loves you.”