I knew without doubt that he was telling the truth because sometimes when he comes back from work really tired and we are not able to have sex and he is very vocal about it and profusely apologizes every time.
But this depressing truth was now killing me from within. Despite all this, Prakash pushed me down on my back and got on top. He kissed me lovingly and said *don’t worry darling, even if I cannot get hard now, I will give you the orgasm you always enjoy when we made love earlier”.
His message was full of warmth and very soothing but the reality hit me harder. Prakash went down on me for much longer this time but I could not get aroused like before or have my “promised” orgasm.
I said “Prakash please stop. it is not helping. I am going to make some calls tomorrow and we will see a doctor to discuss this”. Prakash didn’t stop and I had to pull him up in a loving embrace to stop him.
I saw the unadulterated love for me in his eyes and that melted my heart. We both hugged each other like old times. He said “don’t worry dear, we will find a solution for this”.
We then slept forcibly like that only. My never ending positive attitude made me wake up early in the morning hoping to see if Prakash would have morning wood by the remotest of possibilities like he did earlier.
But sadly I had to resign to my fate seeing his limp cock despite me stroking and sucking on it which only resulted in Prakash waking up. Next few days passed the same way.
I played porn on the tv in our bedroom thinking maybe that might help but failed. Everyday I made calls to all my friends trying to find a good doctor. During this, every night Prakash would go down on me trying to give me those two promised orgasms but failed.
I was too turned off by the situation at hand to even think about my own pleasures. I finally found three reputed doctors and we both met them. After numerous tests and analysis.
It was concluded that the steroids had caused permanent damage and even though his balls were still kind of active, he would not be able to get hard ever again.
The world around me was shattered in a brink…The only way out which one doctor suggested was that they would administer an injection to his cock just minutes before we copulate so he would “temporarily” get hard enough to penetrate me.
Our lives were shattered beyond definition and I resigned to my fate eventually accepting the reality. Even though Prakash insisted that we try out that injection I was not in favour of it because I was scared of other unknown side effects which might make our future worse…
Then we accepted reality and decided to move on with what we have left. Next two months Prakash went down on me everyday giving me my “two promised orgasms” while I was not able to do anything for him in return.
This drove me to even search for unconventional and unnatural means including Ayurveda and black magic to revive him but nothing helped. Then Prakash gave me the link to this website along with various sized dildos.