Suddenly, I stopped, put her gown back in its original position, and placed my cock back in my underwear. I realized that if I got caught, that could mean the end of me and my mother’s close relationship, and I truly loved her, so I stopped and went to bed. I didn’t even masturbate as I was extremely guilty.
Chapter 9 – The Crossroads of Destiny –
On one hand, I am incredibly sex driven, so much so as I want to pursue my own adopted mother, but on the other hand, I realize that playing with this type of fire could ruin my life with Iris. She has been such a rock in my life, I can’t have that taken away from me. I’m sure anyone would understand.
The next day, I thought back to that same thought the other day, touching an unconscious woman influenced by sleeping pills. Personally, I use to take melatonin for sleep and heard of stronger drugs but ive never really found a purpose for it in my sexual expereinece. Yes I humped and fondled my mother in her sleep before but, I never thought it possible to go further than that as I’ve said earlier. I even thought of it as absurd because it just wouldn’t work, at least in my mind. But now looking through a different perspective, I decided to break it down like this.
I have a sexual lust for Iris. From sniffing and cumming on her clothes to touching her genitals in her sleep, the sexual attraction for my adopted mother is evident. While the normal cuddling and and spooning we do is nice, I want to touch her in a more intense, sexual way.
However, touching her in her sleep presented these challenges: Risk and restraint. Currently, I cannot go farther than just gently touching some parts of her body and not in the way that I want. Additionally, it is just HELLA risky to pull off and the consequences don’t outway the bad. So… in sum, if there was some way to subdue my mother without her getting up, that would be better than what I’m currently doing. The way I see it, I had two options… I could either completely give up on my dream of sexually exploring my mother, or I could go down this thin rabbit hole of incapacitation, where the ideal outcome is not a guaranteed possibility. Until I made this decision, I did not pursue my mother. No laundry diving pursuits, no listening to the cries of my mother when she masturbated, and definitely no late night fondling. All of this was postponed until I made a decision, but… from the title (presumably because as of writing this the title is not made), my opening introduction, and the reason why you have stuck this long, you should be able to tell which one I chose. (Sex pills, if you really don’t get it 🙁 )
PART 2 EXECUTION
Chapter 10 – Snatch, Eat, Erase! –
Throughout my time with Iris, I have seen her masturbate a number of times and overheard even more, but with all the sexual devient thoughts running through my mind, I felt the best way to go about anything sexual would be to limit the risk at all cost. However, the best way to do this was to manipulate my mother – specifically her body – and erase all traces of my presence. This in turn, was the reason for incapacitating a woman, to remove the control of her body and give control to the person behind the plan. I thought of it as snatching, eating, and erasing. You can tell I’ve recently been watching a lot of vampire diaries, but you get the gist. I would have to basically “influence” my mother’s body to give up control, and allow me to take control, but thinking this way was a little much for me at the moment. So I would have to learn more about it. It wasn’t the technical aspect like knowing where to get these kinds of drugs or how to pull it off, not yet it wasn’t. It was the general aspect of it. The concept. The outside layer. The shell of the idea. All these things came before the execution, and would have to be accepted and embraced to make action.
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