As I think back now I realize what I just said was absolutely true. It was nothing but a physical encounter. I probably could have used a dildo and got the same results. I had no feeling for Rob, even after we finished. I could never see myself marrying Rob. Jake was the only man I needed.
I went on to convey this to Jake, but he didn’t seem to comprehend. He just sat there starring.
Finally, Jake said, “I have packed some bags Laura. I have to get away. I need to be away from you for awhile to think. I will let you know when I am ready to come back and talk some more. In the meantime, do not, and I repeat, do not try to contact me.”
“Ok Jake. I will give you some space. Just know that I am so sorry, and I love you so much. Please don’t see a lawyer, or file for divorce. I know we can work through this. We can even go to counseling if you want.”
“No Laura, I will not file for divorce. If you want to get rid of me and go to Rob, then you will have to file the divorce. I’m just going away for a little bit.”
“For the last time Jake, Rob does not mean squat to me. I will wait for you Jake. You come back when you are ready. I love you, and I will miss you.”
Jake grabbed his bags and walked out the door. Little did I know just how tough the road ahead would be.
True to my word, I did not try to contact Jake. I figured he would call after about a week. I did get a call from both daughters the next day. They blasted me, and I deserved it. I apologized as best as I could and told them I hoped their dad could forgive me.
They were in contact with Jake, but refused to tell me where he was. In the meantime I went to work, came home, and cried.
I called Rob after Jake had left and told him everything. He seemed really nervous. He wanted to know if Jake owned a gun. I wondered if he had been through this before? Rob did not show up for work Monday or Tuesday. I finally asked the boss and he said Rob resigned, effective immediately, and moved away.
It is just as well. He is the last person I want to see. It would just be a painful reminder of my terrible mistake. The thought of him made me sick to my stomach now.
It was a week later that I got a call from Mandy. I immediately asked about Jake at which point she informed me that was why she called. What she said almost made me faint. It definitely broke my heart.
Jake had sold his business. The sale was worth several million. He deposited a couple of hundred thousand in our account for me to pay bills. I had plenty of money, but Jake wanted to make sure everything was taken care of. The rest he put in a retirement annuity with his and my name on it. Our daughters would be beneficiaries after me.
Then she told me Jake had left the country and gone to Europe. He was going to travel around Europe and see if he could make sense of his life. He also was going to decide if he would ever come home to me.
Mandy and Jen blamed me for everything. They were going to miss their dad. They did come to see me on a few occasions, and eventually forgave me.
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