My goose was cooked. Jake knew. My wonderful world just fell apart.
He walked over to me and jerked my dress up. He could see the dried cum on my leg and panties.
“Cut the shit Laura. No more lies. You better tell me everything, and I mean everything.”
Jake was very angry. I know he was trying to control his temper, but he was so mad. I knew I had to come clean and hope he could forgive me.
I told him the whole story about Rob coming to work at our office, the flirting, the lunches, the kisses, and the plan this week to meet up while I was gone.
“I am so sorry Jake. I regret it deeply. You can’t imagine the guilt I feel right now. I wish I could turn back the clock. It was a stupid mistake that I will regret the rest of my life.”
I could hardly control myself I was crying so much. Then something happened. Jake’s demeanor went from extreme anger to very sad and heartbroken. I would rather him be angry than what I saw on his face. He started to cry. Tears rolled down his face.
“Why Laura? Are you tired of me? Have you fallen out of love with me? If you don’t want me anymore all you had to do was just say so. You didn’t have to go behind my back and cheat on me.”
“NO Jake. I love more now than ever. It is nothing you have or have not done. You are the best husband, lover, and friend any woman would ever want. I am almost 50 Jake. I was feeling old. It made me feel good to know that this young guy wanted me. You are the only man I had ever had sex with. I guess I was curious, but he got to me Jake. He really said things that made me feel good about my sexuality, and how I look. He made me feel young and beautiful.”
“And I don’t? I have spent every day of our marriage telling you and showing you how beautiful, and sexy you are. I guess you were too busy checking out other guys to notice.”
I was at the bottom of a barrel of rotten apples now. I felt like shit. I guess I had been taking all the things he does for granted. He was ten times the man Rob was.
I asked Jake to come sit on the couch next to me. He looked so sad as he walked over to the couch. He sat down next to me, but not touching. I tried to take his hand, but he jerked it away.
“Listen to me Jake,” I said as I looked him in the eye.
“You do make me feel young and sexy. There is not a day that goes by that you don’t rock my world. I love you and only you. What happened last night was a huge mistake that never should have happened. All I can do now is ask you to please forgive me. I know it will take awhile, but I am prepared to wait until hell freezes over if that is what it takes. We have almost 30 years together. We cannot throw that away because of my one indiscretion. Please Jake, give me a chance to make this up to you.”
Jake just stared at me with a far away look in his eye. It scarred me. He has never been like this before.
He looked back at me and said, “Was he better than me Laura? I bet he had a big dick that made you forget all about me.”
“No Jake. He was not better. There was no love or connection. No tenderness or feelings. He was just a fuck, and not near as good as you.”
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