“Yes Amit”
“Then why are you here? Why didn’t you say no to my meeting when you met Aswin? Deep inside you want to do this because you have desires within you”
“Amit. It’s not like that”
“Neha. We are humans. We have our flaws. Nothing wrong if you enjoy it.”
“Amit…”
“Neha. I can see guilt in your eyes. Why are you feeling guilty about it? You enjoyed it”
“Well Amit. He is single. I feel ok. What about sleeping with someone who is in relationship?”
“Well Neha. Tell me one person who wants to sleep with you while in relationship?”
“It could be anyone Amit”
“Well think about it Neha. Why would they want to sleep with you? Is it because they have feelings for you or is it for pleasure?”
“Well Amit its for pleasure”
“Do you have any feelings for Raj now?”
“No”
“Does he have any feelings for you?”
“No.”
“Amit. What about their girlfriends or wives etc? Am I not wrong?”
“Well. Neha. You refuse to sleep with someone. They will find another woman to sleep with. You can’t prevent it from happening”
“Well I feel guilty”
“You should feel guilty if you maintain relationship with two people at once. When you sleep with someone, you are just sharing the pleasure but not relationship. Why feel guilty?”
“Amit…”
“You masturbate thinking about some beautiful strangers whom you don’t know. Why are you not feeling guilty?”
“Amit. Its different”
“Really? If you are not guilty of masturbating about some stranger for pleasure, you shouldn’t be guilty of doing this either”
I couldn’t speak anything.
“Neha. You are too naïve about this whole thing”
“Neha. You have such a lovely skin and hair. You have such a beautiful shape.”
He stood in front of me. Bent a little. He brought his hands and put them on my cheeks and said “Neha, you are missing out lot of fun”.
I removed his hands.
“Amit. What I am missing?”
“Well Neha. People don’t always sleep for same reasons”
“Go on….”
“Neha. People have fantasies. They can’t make these fantasies in real life. So, they make arrangement with someone to fulfill these fantasies”
“Go on….”
“Would you have threesome with someone you know ?”
“No”
“It’s hard. You can ask your bf and who will be the third person? It should be someone anonymous. You can’t ask your neighbor or plumber like they do in porn.”
I laughed. “I get what you are saying”
“It’s just for fun and pleasure. You can meet almost anyone with any kind of fantasy and make it real. Think of me like an app which can make your sex life much better and who can make your dreams a reality”
“Amit. I agree with you but I need time to think about it”
“Neha. You are a science student right?”
“Yes”
“Are you a rational person?”
“Well…. yes”
“Do you read articles about sex on Internet?”
“Sometimes”
“Neha. Many woman have weird fantasies just like men do.”
“Go on….”
“Does it mean these woman should be treated as morally wrong?”
“Well…No”
“It’s just a fantasy. It’s not real. That’s why they call them fantasies. You should separate sex life with normal life.”
“Amit….I get what you are saying. Can I ask you one question?”
“Neha Dear, Ask me anything”