I have always been shy, quiet and calm. I’ve never been something above normal, at anything, at any stuff you would imagine. Just an ordinary woman at her 40s. A boring job at a boring office, so boring that even talking about it bores me, watching TV, Cooking and cleaning. So ordinary and routine.
I lost my husband to a car accident. I was happily married and I think my life was so much better before his death. It’s been 9 years now… 9 years on my own, 9 years just me, Mona. I believe my passion died with that car accident, … it died and made me this boring, fat, unattractive mom.
I have a son. He is the only interesting thing in my life, maybe the only reason I am alive. Luis is a college student and to be honest he is really smarter than me. He is the only hope I have in my boring life. I’ll do anything I can to make him successful and I think I am doing a great job- perhaps the greatest thing I’ve ever done.
Luis studies in our town, so he is always around. We have a great connection based on respect. He never talks loud with me, and honestly I have never seen him angry or even depressed. He really cares about me and I have the same attitude too. Sometimes I think he is too romantic, he really gets me and I am completely happy to have him around the house.
Last week I was watching TV. I was in living room and spread myself on the big couch. It was 6 pm and I heard the door opened. It was Luis. He seemed a little tired cause he left early in the morning. I kind of missed his face. I turned my head to see his beautiful brown eyes. He was obviously tired but as soon as he saw me, a big charming smile came on his face.
“Hi Mom”
Luis told and came to living room. I rose and sat on the couch to give him some space. I straightened my skirt as he approached the couch and reached his right hand to shake mine. It’s our special tradition, we always shake hands, no matter what.
“Hi sweety. How was your day?”
He sat next to me, kissed me briefly on right cheek and let my hand go.
“Not good enough.”
He said reluctantly.
“Something is wrong Lu?”
I raised my eyebrow curiously and continued. He seemed unwilling to talk.
“Never mind Mom. It’s not a really big deal, I am just a little tired. What are you watching?”
I dropped the conversation because I knew him very well. He is really smart and wise so you should never continue these situations. That would make him a little uncomfortable and that’s the last thing I want.
“Some comedy show. Let me make you some green tea. Change your clothes and tea will be ready honey. ”
I told him and stood up. I wanted to go to the kitchen when I saw his tired and sad eyes. His eyes have always been this innocent and when he is a little sad, I definitely notice. I couldn’t help myself, grabbed his head and placed a strong, loud kiss on his left cheek. I love the way his stubbly face feels on my lips.
“Don’t be sad young man, please!”
“I’m not Mom. Don’t pamper me young lady!”
I gave him a big loving laugh and headed to the kitchen. He says funny sometimes which I really like. I grabbed our blue teapot and began to make green tea, Lu’s favorite drink. After 10 minutes I poured tea into two small cups and returned to the living room.