Mom had them do any homework they had (and me!), and then we had a quiet dinner without dad for the first time in a very long time. Even Johnny was unusually quiet through the meal. Maybe he was growing up. Mom broke the news to them after dinner about spending the weekend at Grandma Sharon’s house. Mom might have been better to tell earlier as they both cheered at the news and went around the house seemingly telling every inanimate object that they were going to grandma’s house. After more than thirty minutes, mom and I were finally able to get them to calm down enough that they could go to bed. Mom sat on the couch afterwards and I joined her. I felt very parental at that moment with the kids settled in bed while sitting beside my lover and mother.
“Are we really ready for this weekend Jeremy?” Mom asked quietly.
“Why do you ask? It’s just going to be a lot of sex. And some eating. Sometimes together!”
“I’m serious Jeremy. This isn’t like anything we’ve done before.”
“Sure we have. That first time at Aunt Jess’s with Margie, that day they went to the zoo. All the other things we’ve done”
“That first time is all that is similar and that was something special and completely different. That other day was only you and me, not Jessica too. This will be all three of us. Like that night we didn’t watch the movie and went to my bed and you passed out on us. But that was only for an hour or two. This will be for two days!” She said emphatically.
“We aren’t going to be having sex all the time mom. We have to rest sometime. Even me!”
“I’ve never had sex for an entire day Jeremy, not even when I first got married. We were broke and both working. We couldn’t afford to have sex all day!”
“And now you can!”
“And I want to. I want you. Even if I have to share you with Jessica.”
“I told you mom. You don’t have to share me. Aunt Jess and I are grateful you do, but I could tell her no. Well maybe I could.”
Mom gave me a weak smile and kissed the edge of my lips. “I told you I wouldn’t do that to you. Or her. I have no right to keep you for myself. I shouldn’t have you at all! But I’ve given up beating myself up about what we are doing, and now I just don’t want to get caught doing it.” I put my arm around her back and pulled her against my shoulder.
“I don’t know what will happen with us. I don’t even want to guess. I could never have guessed that I would be sitting here with you, holding you, being able to kiss you,” and I did, a quick but tender kiss,” and that we are about to have a sex-filled weekend together.”
“I know honey. This all seems so unreal sometimes. Other times it seems all too real. I don’t know what the future holds either, but I’m a little afraid to find out. I have so much more to lose now. You, the kids, even your father. We may be fighting now, but we’ll get past it, we love each other too much to let this … disagreement break up our marriage. Even this thing with you. No matter how I feel for you, I couldn’t divorce your father because of it.”
“And regardless of how I feel mom, I don’t want you too either. Even if I get jealous seeing you with dad.”