“You’ve never denied that you’ve been cheating on dad, but it’s not the same really. You’re not doing it with some strange man you picked up at the grocery store.” I tried to ease her consciousness, but I wasn’t sure if I did though.
“No Jeremy.” Mom did look at me now, with sad but smiling eyes. “This makes it worse. That he’s not good enough for me, but his son, our son, is. It’s not only me cheating on him, it’s you too!”
I had to turn away from mom’s gaze with this near-accusation. Aunt Jessica nodded her agreement. How did this suddenly become all about me? I was still technically the victim here. I hadn’t started this. Not with mom. And not with Aunt Jess either. I hadn’t done anything until our third encounter. I had been a willing bystander, very willing, but still just a bystander. Both of them were still looking at me and I was getting very uncomfortable.
“But it’s not all our fault mom. If he’d been taking care of you, none of this would have even started.” I tried to deflect this unwanted attention.
“That’s a feeble excuse Jeremy. I’m sure that there are millions of wives that aren’t being fulfilled that aren’t cheating. That doesn’t justify this. And at this point, I don’t know that even if he had been taking care of my ‘needs’ that I wouldn’t have kept my hand there. I’ve since learned that there is something about you Jeremy that makes me want to be dangerous with you!” Her tone had softened and I was able to look at her again.
“I’ve always wanted to be dangerous with you.” Aunt Jess added, not wanting to be left out. Well, anymore than she already felt. I turned to take in her gaze.
“You two are the most dangerous women that I know, and I don’t ever want to lose you. Either of you.” I stared intently at my aunt with my last statement to show she shouldn’t feel slighted in the least. A smile bloomed on her lips. Mom saw this and smiled too.
“Just because we are going to do this doesn’t mean I am completely okay with it.” The smile didn’t leave her lips though.
“I’m not either mom. I’ve accepted that since that first time we had sex. I love to be with you. Both of you. But I didn’t set out to steal you from dad. I don’t want to do anything to hurt him, or the family. I want you for myself, but I don’t want to have my parents get divorced either.” I said with my deepest sincerity.
“You didn’t steal me Jeremy. I gave myself to you willingly.” Mom’s loving look swelled my heart. It hurt that being with her was also causing her any anguish. It only made me want to comfort and please her all the more.
Aunt Jessica looked on with an odd stare that to me looked like jealousy. But it seemed to be directed at me and not her sister. My aunt obviously had her own unvoiced issues to deal with. I don’t know what I had done to her for her to be jealous. She saw me staring at her and the look washed from her face and was replaced by a weak smile that seemed forced. Mom broke the silence that had filled the room.
“So I’ll call mom to make sure it will be okay for the kids to come for the weekend. Justin leaves Thursday evening but we’ll still have our usual Friday movie night routine; we shouldn’t change that just because you’re dad isn’t here.” Aunt Jess got a lecherous grin on her lips. Mom continued unaware. “Johnny and Jojo do look forward to Fridays.”