“Thanks Raja, to comforting me last night. You were there when I needed you.” And before closing the door she said, “And Don’t worry about getting erection – it’s perfectly natural!”
And door closed.
This was the first time my Mother had ever said anything like that. The impact of that line was so strong that I didn’t concentrate as my attention was drawn to the fact that she HAD FELT MY ERECTION and SHE DIDN’T MIND! I kept thinking about that all the time in the college. When I got back from college mother was in the kitchen. By the dinnertime Mother didn’t say anything to me about it then neither did I. We didn’t wait for Father to get home and had dinner together, without speaking anything.
I spent the rest of the time thinking about my Mother, about her breast and also the thought of them squashed against me. I dropped off to sleep eventually but again woke up around midnight. I got up quietly and went to Mother’s room. Her light was on, she was sitting up but not crying, just looking blankly in front of her. Father was fast asleep by her side, snoring.
Mother saw me at the doorway and motioned me to come to her. She hugged me tightly but I tried to keep my cock from touching her. She looked up at me, silently with a wan smile and rubbed my back with her hand. I copied her with mine. My cock was hard but this time it didn’t bother me so much. She looked down, noticing the bulge it made in my shorts and I smiled sheepishly. Before we separated she pulled me down to kiss me, as I went to hold her my hands brushed against her breasts and I felt an electric shock as I felt the soft heavy mass of them. This time, before going back to bed, I went to the toilet and masturbated vigorously.
In the morning we once again said nothing about the night before. Mother was wearing her Sari and blouse. She hadn’t put a bra under her blouse and I could make out the shape of her tits through the thin material of her blouse as she moved. As I was out for college mother came to close the door and before closing it she said smilingly,
“I don’t mind your erections at all and I hope you enjoyed yourself in the toilet afterwards!”
I began to shake. She knew that I had tossed myself off in the toilet! Mother had never spoken to me about sex before, it was as though she was expressing her true self. I could even see the smile she would have had as she said that; the mischievous smile. Well if she could say so explicitly then that I would too. When I came back from college mother was in the kitchen preparing something. She saw me and smiled. Then turned her back to me and kept doing what she was doing. I went behind her and keep my hands on her shoulder and said,
“Maa, I can’t help the erections when I feel your breasts pressed against me and I can’t get back to sleep with an erection so that is why I had to go to the toilet afterwards. You have very lovely breasts, Maa!” saying that I left the room without giving her chance to say anything. After I spent the rest of the evening in a state of nervous tension, regretting that I had said it. Mother smiled at me at dinner time though but said nothing of course. What could she say with Father around? I couldn’t wait to go to her room again and didn’t sleep at all.