Nodding Sean continued, “Yes, it is a classic and captures the fantasies of both men and women. ‘Fifty Shades of Grey’ is another one that can stimulate our imagination. Have you seen that one?”
“No, my wife would have killed me. She thinks any movie like that must be evil and promotes unnatural sex.”
“That is too bad. It also is an honest portrayal of human sexual desires of both the person dominating and the person being dominated. Have you ever had a desire to dominant or be dominated in a sexual way?”
This question was very personal so I did not reply but simply stared into the room.
Sean said, “You know most people have these desires. Some want to be dominant and others would prefer the freedom of being dominated. Have you ever thought about either of these possibilities?”
At this moment my cock became erect and noticeably so. I tried to hide the reaction but Sean was a professional and saw my excitement.
“Jim, your ‘truth detector’ is telling me that you have thought about this and in fact a fair amount of time. Which to you want to be the dominant or the dominated? In other words when you watch porn to you wish you were the Master or the sub?”
I still did not want to say anything but there was a growing urge to tell him I liked the role of sub when I watched porn.
“Don’t be embarrassed to share those feelings with me. I am a professional and must keep any information a client shares with me secret. In fact, if you buy me a beer, that will serve as payment and make you my client. Do you like that idea?”
I slightly nodded my head yes. That was all it took.
Sean motioned to Brent at the bar for two more beers. When he brought them to us, Sean said, “Jim, is buying me a beer and I agreed to be his psychologist.” With a wink Brent put the new beers in front of us and removed the old ones.
“Now that you are my client you can tell me everything and I can’t legally share that information with anyone. So, tell me do you identify as a Master or sub?”
“Sean, I don’t really know but I seem to relate to the person being dominated in the porn I watch.”
Sean asked, “is there anything in your past that might make you a submissive person? Perhaps some incident in your past either you liked or experienced that causes you some excitement?”
After a long moment of silence I said, “In my senior year in college there was one incident that did affect me and still lingers in the back of my mind.”
“Tell a bit more about that. Remember you are now my patient so anything and everything you tell me will not be shared with anyone.”
It seemed like a flood gate had been opened and I started to tell him things no one had ever been told about my inner feelings.
“During my final year in college I was in a college bar when one of my former, graduate instructors joined me for a beer. We had a nice conversation. At some point I had to go to the bathroom. Josh ordered another beer for both of us. After another 15 minutes or so of conversation, I started to feel strange and could not easily walk. Josh offered to take me to his apartment so I could rest. Once there he took control, stripped me, and proceeded to fuck me. I couldn’t resist but somehow had a feeling of enjoying being unable to resist. A bit later a friend of his joined us and at Josh’s instruction he too fucked me. It was terrible but also there was this strange feeling of excitement.”