“Yeah. Pretty in a used-up hooker sort of way,” I said.
That made Mom laugh. But that laugh turned into tears, and she held her face in her hands and sobbed. I reached out and touched her shoulder, but she turned violently away from my touch.
“Don’t touch me. Don’t.”
“Mom, we have to talk. We can’t go on like this.”
“The two men in my life betrayed me.”
“Dad forced me. You know him.” I don’t know if I would have passed a lie detector test on that one because, even though Dad set the wheels in motion, I definitely went gladly along for the ride-a ride on top of my mom. Even in this emotional situation with my mother crying, part of me was thinking “I fucked my sperm into you, and I made you cum!”
“I need time. I have a hard decision I must make soon. I don’t want to blame you, Eric, but what we did was so shamefully wrong. I’m so hurt and embarrassed. I’m afraid it will never be the same between us again.”
I turned Mom around and held her by the shoulders so she couldn’t just run away. “Mom, I know it will never be the same. I know that. But, it can be better than ever. Dad’s crazy to go looking for something other than you. I can see that because I love you not only as a mother, but, I… love you as a woman too.”
“Eric, you don’t know what you’re talking about. You’re just a confused boy that was blinded by his hormones and misguided by a domineering father.”
“I’m not a boy anymore, Mom. I’m a man. Right now, the man of this house, and we have to stick together to see this through.”
“You’re just a boy,” she said.
This got me angry, and as I was walking away, I said, “I was man enough to make you cum, wasn’t I? I’m taking a shower.”
I was angry. But more at myself. Mom was going through so much and I had to make it worse by being sensitive. She was still my mother and that’s how she viewed me even though I had played another role in her life as BaBeeBoy69. I tried to let the hot water rinse away my feelings along with the soap.
I heard the bathroom door open. “”Eric, I brought some clean towels,” Mom said. “I’m sorry about before. I know we have to talk this over to get it behind us. But, I’m not ready yet. I don’t know how to do it. Please understand.
I shut the water off and squeegeed the water off my body with my hands. I stepped out of the shower and said, “Hand me a towel, Mom.”
She did, but we never made eye contact. She was looking straight at my penis.
“It’s all right, Mom. It’s hard for both of us.” For the three of us, counting my cock which was getting an erection.
“Eric, I’m your mother. You have to respect that.”
“I do, Mom. But I respect you as both my mother and… a woman.” My cock was well on the way to a full erection. It must have scared her because she turned and left without another word.
We ate dinner mostly in silence. I caught Mom looking at me when she didn’t think I noticed. With dinner Mom had a glass of white wine. Unusual for her.
She went to her room at about 9 P.M. and I got bored watching TV and went to mine an hour later. After about 10 minutes, I heard a light knock on the door.