I felt embarrassed for simply standing in front of my mother’s closed bedroom door to listen for a moment. I was curious. Lewd thoughts went through my mind. It must have been a jarring sight to see my well educated & respectable mother in bed, using a new vibrator on herself. I wondered what she thought about during her masturbation.
The buzzing sound stopped, and I quietly walked away so my mother wouldn’t know I was there. The last thing I ever wanted was for her knowing that I was listening.
***
Morning. We were both in the kitchen eating our breakfast. My mother was dressed in a sharp stylish suit, while she stood and finished her coffee. It was weird seeing her after I had listened to her masturbating with the vibrator the night before, but it was also kind of arousing.
“I ordered more things online,” she said before sipping her coffee again. “It should arrive in about a week.”
“Should I open it for you?”
My reply was sarcastic, since the last time I opened her package, I discovered her new vibrator. She easily picked up on the joke and gave me a sharp, but playful look. The kind of look only a mother could give.
“Go ahead,” she replied. “They’re books. Put them in my room.”
“What kind of books? The same motivational stuff as before?”
“Not exactly. They’re more spiritual books in a way. A colleague recommended them to me, and I’d like to keep an open mind.”
I nodded. “Whatever works for you.”
“Some of the content is a little unconventional,” she said with a playful shrug. “But if it worked for my colleague, then maybe it’ll work for me.”
And eventually, it did…
***
It was over a week later when the bundle of books had arrived. To my surprise, the books all had sexual themes. History of women’s sexual advancements, women’s sexual identities, sex and spirituality, and even a guide on female masturbation.
As I held them in my hand, I couldn’t help but feel extremely awkward, but slightly aroused. As someone who loves older women, I thought the idea of a woman reading this stuff was enticing, even if it was my own mother.
That night, my mother explained that a female colleague had recommended the books. The woman was in her 50’s, and had become a mentor to my mother in how to lead. They were also close friends for many years.
She seemed happy about her new direction in life. And I was happy for her.
Part 2 of 3: The New Experience
A few months later…
My mother won her first major settlement since becoming partner. She had spent a considerable amount of time on a fraud case which involved complex financial matters.
She tried explaining it to me a few times, but I could never understand.
It was a high point for my mother. She proved to herself, and to everyone at the firm, that she was worthy of her title. She was already well-regarded at work, but she got the validation that she desperately seemed to want (and in the form of a multi-million dollar settlement). Plus, she felt as though justice was served. She strongly believed in her case and the cause she was fighting for.